It's not easy
For d past couple of days ive been wondering what's next in life. Im thinking of getting a car irregardless of my background issue. But is that necessary? I see my sister still not helping out, instead doing the opposite. My brother, still fickle-minded. My grams, working the household as long as her body can. And my mum, enjoying her lost time with her friends. Am i the only one in the family thats worrying about the future? It seems like that so pardon me if now is the time im being selfish. But hey, the family stands to gain, so why not? Just that i'll be forking out a chunk of cash. There's still the IPPT that i've to clear. Wonder when THAT gonna happen.
Right now as i'm typig this, i'm trying to calm my mind. Having a small anxiety moment with no apparent reason. God be with me in my darkest hour. Nothing beats me down if i put my mind and heart in it. It's all about where my heart lies. If it wants, it wills. But, it's getting tougher. I just dont know how long i can be sane...

