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Wednesday, November 29, 2006 ( Free now... ) Well, not that I have free time to spare. Just that I am just trying to find something to do. Might as well change my blogskin! Been awhile though since I last blog. Hmm... Let me see now. What had happened to me recently? Well, managed to do more important stuff the past few days. Projects, letters, reports, presentations.. etc etc.. Blah blah blah.. List goes on... Ya, feeling great now. Just that I cant really concentrate with my studies. Especially with some of my modules. Seems that I have to catch up real fast. Coz when that Holiday Season kicks in.. erm, another 2 weeks, I'm not gonna spend time with anything that got to do with school. Just wanna have the my own time. Relax and dream... Shucks, Im dreaming again. Well, back to my studies. ~Adios amigo.... 10:41 PM Friday, November 24, 2006 ( What a week... ) Well, just got back from MindCafe, @ Dhoby Ghaut, actually near Bugis there lah.. At Prinsep Street. Shiok sia.. Recommend it to everyone. Its a normal cafe but they offer 200++ of different board games to play with your friends. At first, we(my club peepz) played Janga, Truth or Dare, then we play Werewolves!! Werewolves is a game like Police and thieves whereby there are 3 werewolves, one fortune teller and the normal villagers. So its something like a story. At night the villagers sleep and the werewolves attack and kill one villager. Then the werewolves sleep and the fortune teller awakes to guess who is the werewolves. Then when the day arrives, the villager who is dead will give u his card, and the rest of the villagers will ponder who are the werewolves. Everyone will point to that villager who they think is the werewolf. If they got the werewolf, then left 3 wolves, but if got the wrong character, they risk another life of a villager. Damn fun la, my Boss, alvin, keep 'burning' everyone la.. He enjoy 'burning'.. Next time i'll pass him a flaming torch during camp. Haha... So yupz, after that, everyone except Boss, Shao, Nick n I went grab something to eat. We're damn famished... Haha.. Its a good environment to chill with.. Must go again next time hor... Then, before meeting them at MindCafe, I actually had a(another) Dialogue Session with a Minister. This time is Mr. Iswaran. Minister of State(MoS) for Trade and Industry. The environment is like super cozy as we all were sit-ed on bean bags... Shiok!! I wanna have one of those things! Anyway, not really that bothered about asking questions as the others ask questions with a sense that its more 'matured' than mine... Haha.. What to do, last minute think of questions till I gave up thinking. So Glen did another wonderful question about increase GST will affect the birthrate in Spore. Hakz.. Super la he... Dunno how he can manage to think something like that. Well, so far so good. Now I just wanna concentrate on my next big project involving Northwest CDC. Heading the Logistics and damn its stressing. Well, wish me luck... ~Cherios =0) 11:54 PM Friday, November 17, 2006 ( Yeah, finally!!! ) Finally, the first round of tests(MST) has ended. Well, good thing my best bud was confident of getting high marks for most of his modules.. Good on ya mate. High time you study and enjoy the sweetness of high marks. Hakz... Well, last paper today was Logic Design. Not really confident since I didnt study much(naughty me).. Yar, been slack abt this module. No idea why. Not that I wanted too... So yar.. thats for that... Went to the optom centre for my eye check. Woah, as usual, a visual feast for me. If you know what I mean. It's a good idea to get females working at optometry centres. Fits the description of "Visual Feast"... Haha.. Literally... Well, i was 'served' by Minfong... Cute... i think she was very nervous with me. Hakz... She gave me that feeling that I may bite her if she does something wrong. How i wish it wasn't me that would bite her, but her lecturer lurking behind her back. Haha... Yeah, the whole process was good... She apologise for making me wait 15 mins when my appointment says at 3.20pm. Well, I dont min the lateness so long I get what I wanted. And she fits that bit piece of description inside my head. LoL... Yupz, finally getting my contact lenses soon. Another week for it to come. Hakz.. Gonna chg from monthly to daily ones... no more cleaning and stuff.. Yeah!!! Well, gonna go for another follow-up. Hopefully its the same as today. I already started to miss her. Bwarhaha... Ok ok, im dreaming again... Haha.. Ok, thats all.. ~Cherios=) 8:54 PM Thursday, November 16, 2006 ( I give up ) Here's the list... 1) Get that license 2) Get that car 3) Get that membership(Any membership la, I dont care) 4) Get that ADIDAS shirt( very sad ) 5) Finally, the most important, Get that heart... I just wanna earned back my life... These stuff are making me sidetracking a lot of time... Maybe next time, when things get better and my wealth is back on top, then I'll start thinking about these items again, except for no. 5... Won't have time for it anymore. With great respect..., I shall not torment myself again. It's not time yet. And I'm not the one... I wanna spent my valuable time to do the best I can be in poly, my CDC and my own life. And i accept that every now and then, this question abt relationship will arise from my friends, have grown use to it... So yar, i feel peace have come back to me... Dunno how long that peace will last... But till that peace is broken, I'll shall ENJOY!!! WOOHOO!!! 9:36 PM Monday, November 13, 2006 ( Feeling I cant let go... ) Maybe to some it's sym-PATHETIC... Im not sure what the hell happened that day. For the first time in my career, I actually made a big blunder... and it pissed my bosses. It's not fair to me. I felt that I'm being used. There's no dignity in the whole thing. But what can I do. This job is lifeline for me to gain back my losses. But what hurts me lots was after i finished work... When straight to Tan Tock Seng Hospital to visit my grandfather. His heart gets weaker again. Usually when I visit him in the past, was always with my family. But this time I went alone. When I arrived at his ward, he was sound asleep, but I think he knows me coming and he woke up. It took him awhile to recognise me. My heart wrenched. I told him it was me. This is the first time I have to say things like that. Can't believe it that I almost shed tears at that moment. But more were still to come. Then I talked to him. Seriously talking i mean. I realised that he has a hard time breathing. He was breathing very deeply. He's lying there already aches me, but to see him suffering like that, GOD, my legs starts to become jelly. I tried helping him massage his legs. Im sure he has leg cramps by then. Then to see him closely, feel the way he feels. I dunno, somehow I can sense what he sense. And seriously, I wish Im the world's most intelligent and riches man on Earth. So that I could come up with something to lessen, or better still, eradicate his suffering. I now have 2 family members who are getting weaker by the day. Then i and my granddad talked about life. He said of how he regretted his actions in his life. Of how he, a very hardcore smoker, failed to follow the doctor's advice to stop smoking. And he sadly finally realised the consequences. He's living thru hell now. And he gave me this piece of advice, "Don't ever smoke or drink or do anything that may affect you later, or else you'll regret it like me"... Imagine if someone said like that to you, what do you feel? What do you do? Cry, or just nod your head? I almost did. My eyes became teary at that point of time. But I found the courage to keep those tears inside. He even told me that he cried every night in the hospital bed. Of how, he has affected the whole family due to the medical costs that will arise. To my disbelieved, he thought the day was WEDNESDAY! I told him it's Saturday. I could see the shock in his eyes. From monday when he was hospitalised, till today, I heard him say in the most British way I could ever hear from him, "My Goodness!".. Haha... After I bought for him some pears and a medicated oil, I went back home. He was still smiling when I left him there. Maybe to hide the pain he has within. But as I walk back, I felt im at a total loss. Im gonna lose someone who has watched me grow up to become what I am today. He didnt said anything but I can feel that he is proud of me. Of how he has good memories of us together when I was very young. When he can stand up tall and being proud of himself. I'll never forget that... Truly, call me a weakling, but as I'm typing this down, Im trying very hard to stop the tears that's flowing... But I belive that, there's no such thing as men dont shed tears but blood. As men with heart will shed tears and blood together. No matter what the circumstances are. I hope for those who's reading this, please share with those who smokes or what nots, cos it'll probably affect them too, later in life.... 10:45 PM Sunday, November 12, 2006 ( Don't follow me. ) Maybe to some it's sym-PATHETIC... Im not sure what the hell happened today. For the first time in my career, I actually made a big blunder... and it pissed my bosses. It's not fair to me. I felt that I'm being used. There's no dignity in the whole thing. But what can I do. This job is lifeline for me to gain back my losses. But what hurts me lots was after i finished work... When straight to Tan Tock Seng Hospital to visit my grandfather. His heart gets weaker again. Usually when I visit him in the past, was always with my family. But this time I went alone. When I arrived at his ward, he was sound asleep, but I think he knows me coming and he woke up. It took him awhile to recognise me. My heart wrenched. I told him it was me. This is the first time I have to say things like that. Can't believe it that I almost shed tears at that moment. But more were still to come. Then I talked to him. Seriously talking i mean. I realised that he has a hard time breathing. He was breathing very deeply. He's lying there already aches me, but to see him suffering like that, GOD, my legs starts to become jelly. I tried helping him massage his legs. Im sure he has leg cramps by then. Then to see him closely, feel the way he feels. I dunno, somehow I can sense what he sense. And seriously, I wish Im the world's most intelligent and riches man on Earth. So that I could come up with something to lessen, or better still, eradicate his suffering. I now have 2 family members who are getting weaker by the day. Then i and my granddad talked about life. He said of how he regretted his actions in his life. Of how he, a very hardcore smoker, failed to follow the doctor's advice to stop smoking. And he sadly finally realised the consequences. He's living thru hell now. And he gave me this piece of advice, "Don't ever smoke or drink or do anything that may affect you later, or else you'll regret it like me"... Imagine if someone said like that to you, what do you feel? What do you do? Cry, or just nod your head? I almost did. My eyes became teary at that point of time. But I found the courage to keep those tears inside. He even told me that he cried every night in the hospital bed. Of how, he has affected the whole family due to the medical costs that will arise. To my disbelieved, he thought the day was WEDNESDAY! I told him it's Saturday. I could see the shock in his eyes. From monday when he was hospitalised, till today, I heard him say in the most British way I could ever hear from him, "My Goodness!".. Haha... After I bought for him some pears and a medicated oil, I went back home. He was still smiling when I left him there. Maybe to hide the pain he has within. But as I walk back, I felt im at a total loss. Im gonna lose someone who has watched me grow up to become what I am today. He didnt said anything but I can feel that he is proud of me. Of how he has good memories of us together when I was very young. When he can stand up tall and being proud of himself. I'll never forget that... Truly, call me a weakling, but as I'm typing this down, Im trying very hard to stop the tears that's flowing... But I belive that, there's no such thing as men dont shed tears but blood. As men with heart will shed tears and blood together. No matter what the circumstances are. I hope for those who's reading this, please share with those who smokes or what nots, cos it'll probably affect them too, later in life.... 12:05 AM Friday, November 10, 2006 ( Gonna be interesting ) I dunno... A bit rush now. With all the things running through my life. NWCDC, school, work... It's like im truly sailing to the unknown. Just the other day I talk to a very close friend. That friend touched on my very nature of socialabilty(If there's such word)... Its a very interesting topic and we shared our own views on our lives, particularly, our recently concluded camp. How I was doing all the work and giving impressions to the rest that the 'unglam' works let them handle. I seriously woked up from my dream la... Finally, that friend gave me a very advice/quote, "y gif pple a chance to hate u coz they dun noe u, than juz making a little effort to let them love u?" (Extract from our MSN conversation) Kinda hit a raw nerve there... I'm not sure of myself before this, but I'm confident now of what I am after... To that friend who gave me this piece of motivation, you're truly remarkable and inspirational. I always look to you as more than a friend, forever. True to my heart... ~Cheers... 1:20 AM Monday, November 06, 2006 ( Thank you for the support ) Well, my club camp finally ended. Its pretty exhausting la. But hey, managed to complete it, so, its good la(pat myself on the back). Last Friday went to watch the Covenant at midnite with the rest of my clubmates. Nice show, pretty much like Charm. Only difference is the "RYU-style-ball-coming-from-hand" type, as the main power of the characters. Anybody like Underworld and Charm, this a show you wanna watch. Saturday and Sunday not bad la... We all know how is it like right?? So no need to mention it. Just that on Sunday, Marlene had to leave early due to the gastric pain she had. Hopefully she's ok. Yingwen too. Maybe the nightwalk got something to do with it. Hehe... Gonna miss this camp though. Surprising huh for me to say that... Well, it's the truth la... But i'm looking forward to more gatherings for all of us... Don't think the bonding is there... Strong but not that strong. Im gonna glue that even tighter next time... Well, e-Learning is back. Gonna like these work, NOT... Hur Hur... My head is still giddy. Y? I dunno.. Hur hur... How m i gonna shake this off??? I also don't know. Hopefully, it'll go away soon.. (Shakes head) Today just went to my CDC's meeting for our next big project. We called it the Bus MRT Walk challenge, aka B.M.W Challenge. Kinda copyright la... But thats the way to attract attention right??? Hakz... This time, I'm heading the Logistics team. HEAD.. Meaning im the leader for this team. And im leading a few noobs as well... With a few thousand dollars to be put upon my shoulders... swell... Cmon, bring it on!!! Hakz... I can teach these noobs a few masterstrokes about handling mega bucks and ensuring all materials are there. LoL... Well. i'm gonna doze off now. Gonna make the full time tmr to complete any assignments for e_learning. ~Cheers 11:22 PM |